本文发表在 rolia.net 枫下论坛My Dad is a doctor. Mum is a teacher. I was their second son. They have a daughter. Before Dad got married with Mum, he ever loved another woman. Because of the Chinese Culture Revolution, he was forced to abandon her and married my Mum.
He worked and studied very hard, and achieved a certain scusses in medical field when I was 4 yrs old. But probably it was his idea, Mum and Dad performed a play in front of me and sister. Mum cried and complained him, ' You always only take care of your job, but push all homework to me!.... I want to divoice with you!' When I was a child, I couldnt tell their trick. And then parents asked their daughter to raise an question to me,' if they were divoiced, who you would like to choose to live with?' I though, Mum is week and poor than Dad, I should go with her. Then I answered, I followed with Mum.
After that, Dad treated me unfairly and rudely. He beated me always on my head, legs... since I was 4 years old till teens. He didnt give me any gifts, money. My clothes, shoes are all used from his daughters. Untill I grew up, it was Mum who purchased living stuffs for me. After high school graduation, I only took 2 years colleges. And probably it was my Mum who support me on that. Yet his daughter enjoied another totally different life. She could ask me to anything for her. She could get lots of gifts from relatives, his friends. She enjoied 5 years medical university in China and 2 years study abroad.
Since I was child till I grown up as an adult, they never give me mercy. I must save each pennies at home. I was not allowed to use phone for more than 5 minutes, I was not allowed to take a bath over 15 minutes. Yet I undertook lots of homework for them. I never feel warmth and true heart feeling at home. I was very upset in that passtime.
Therefore, I feel I must leave them! I must find my heaven!
3 years ago, I succeed in immigration to here. And before I leave, I scucceed win a girl's affection. 1 year ago, I married her and applied her to here. We, young couples, start my new life in Canada. And I want to abandon my used name, as if the dad has being 'abandoned' me since 25 yrs ago.
They begin scared. They say harsh words upon us to wife's parents. Actually they only give me a little money for our marriage. They begin to beg me come back their home. Though I try hard to clear my any memory about them, but every Spring Festival, they call me one time. And some vacations, they call me some times. I cut those calls as I receive the phone and heard their voice.
Once, I heard my Mum's voice. It was from an old woman. The voice was low, and week. The voice was sad, and guilty. The voice sounds regretful and pitty. She was my ever mum.
I remeber once a upon a time, I told her that her husband sleep with his old love when I saw this scene in through tape at my 18 years old, and her daughter was in university. She cired sadly. But she didnt try to suicide. I wandered, since her husband cheat her affection for such long time, why she could accept this fact!? I wandered, when I tried to ask the dad for explaination, why she stoped my mouth! I was an adult, and did I have the right to know your reason, didnt I?????!!!!!
I prefer to grow up in a poor family, but with love from each other. I appreciate my wife's famlily. She is poor also. What we have is only no more than $20,000. And her parents, younger brother are living in a small town in China. She is a nice and sweet girl like most of people, not like me. I am suppressed, lack of confidence, although I performanced well in programming in China, and have a certain skill in oral english. But thoughout my unhappy time in China, I am lack of confidence, and feel frustrated easily....
Every time when I receive Mum's call, I feel mainly angry, yet coming with a little bit hesitation. Sometimes I dream of parents. Part of the dreams are with anger. Part of them are with tears. Part of them are with pitty on mum.
But I decide to abandom them, especially the dad and his daughter. And in order to punished his daughter, I leave mum for her. They are living in US. She has enough money to rasise the parents.
Will my decesion be wrong? Will my decesion make me feeling guilty in the future? Will my offspring think me guilty?
Any ladies and gentlemen has your individual comment, please?更多精彩文章及讨论，请光临枫下论坛 rolia.net
He worked and studied very hard, and achieved a certain scusses in medical field when I was 4 yrs old. But probably it was his idea, Mum and Dad performed a play in front of me and sister. Mum cried and complained him, ' You always only take care of your job, but push all homework to me!.... I want to divoice with you!' When I was a child, I couldnt tell their trick. And then parents asked their daughter to raise an question to me,' if they were divoiced, who you would like to choose to live with?' I though, Mum is week and poor than Dad, I should go with her. Then I answered, I followed with Mum.
After that, Dad treated me unfairly and rudely. He beated me always on my head, legs... since I was 4 years old till teens. He didnt give me any gifts, money. My clothes, shoes are all used from his daughters. Untill I grew up, it was Mum who purchased living stuffs for me. After high school graduation, I only took 2 years colleges. And probably it was my Mum who support me on that. Yet his daughter enjoied another totally different life. She could ask me to anything for her. She could get lots of gifts from relatives, his friends. She enjoied 5 years medical university in China and 2 years study abroad.
Since I was child till I grown up as an adult, they never give me mercy. I must save each pennies at home. I was not allowed to use phone for more than 5 minutes, I was not allowed to take a bath over 15 minutes. Yet I undertook lots of homework for them. I never feel warmth and true heart feeling at home. I was very upset in that passtime.
Therefore, I feel I must leave them! I must find my heaven!
3 years ago, I succeed in immigration to here. And before I leave, I scucceed win a girl's affection. 1 year ago, I married her and applied her to here. We, young couples, start my new life in Canada. And I want to abandon my used name, as if the dad has being 'abandoned' me since 25 yrs ago.
They begin scared. They say harsh words upon us to wife's parents. Actually they only give me a little money for our marriage. They begin to beg me come back their home. Though I try hard to clear my any memory about them, but every Spring Festival, they call me one time. And some vacations, they call me some times. I cut those calls as I receive the phone and heard their voice.
Once, I heard my Mum's voice. It was from an old woman. The voice was low, and week. The voice was sad, and guilty. The voice sounds regretful and pitty. She was my ever mum.
I remeber once a upon a time, I told her that her husband sleep with his old love when I saw this scene in through tape at my 18 years old, and her daughter was in university. She cired sadly. But she didnt try to suicide. I wandered, since her husband cheat her affection for such long time, why she could accept this fact!? I wandered, when I tried to ask the dad for explaination, why she stoped my mouth! I was an adult, and did I have the right to know your reason, didnt I?????!!!!!
I prefer to grow up in a poor family, but with love from each other. I appreciate my wife's famlily. She is poor also. What we have is only no more than $20,000. And her parents, younger brother are living in a small town in China. She is a nice and sweet girl like most of people, not like me. I am suppressed, lack of confidence, although I performanced well in programming in China, and have a certain skill in oral english. But thoughout my unhappy time in China, I am lack of confidence, and feel frustrated easily....
Every time when I receive Mum's call, I feel mainly angry, yet coming with a little bit hesitation. Sometimes I dream of parents. Part of the dreams are with anger. Part of them are with tears. Part of them are with pitty on mum.
But I decide to abandom them, especially the dad and his daughter. And in order to punished his daughter, I leave mum for her. They are living in US. She has enough money to rasise the parents.
Will my decesion be wrong? Will my decesion make me feeling guilty in the future? Will my offspring think me guilty?
Any ladies and gentlemen has your individual comment, please?更多精彩文章及讨论，请光临枫下论坛 rolia.net