Can he take care of your baby because he often go back to China? I think you can hire a babysitter or send your baby to daycare center because you can make money. Leave him, leave this coward. He is not nice to you and fears to face difficult. Do you think he loves you? I don't think so. If he really love you, at least, he could encourage you when you are exhausted instead of blaming or depressing. Do you really think it is worthy for keeping your marriage just because he probably can take care of your child? One more thing, do you love him? If so, nobody can help you for we prefer to destroy a temple rather than to ruin a marriage.